Lost in words...

I follow the tide, knowing nothing It leads me to somewhere wherein I know nothing of I still blindly follow it hoping for a distant light I see the light but it seems far off... My heart yearns for this journey to be over but as I travel farther and farther I realize the tide is showing me the right path and when I went astray it puts me back where I am destined to go It feels hard now but I hope it won't be hard later for without hope and belief we are non-existent I don't understand anything now but hope it all fits exactly like a jigsaw puzzle as still I am so puzzled why I am leaded so but there is still something I understand gradually Naïve emotions still makes me follow!!!

I didn't know it was very hard to move on. I tried my best I think but still why the hiccups, don't know. I am experiencing a time wherein I can't take a decision myself. Lots of things to be weighed simultaneously with a lot of probability intertwined between. Hoping that at least by accident I take the best decision somehow....

I follow the tide, I wake up with dreams and aspirations, I wake up with a sudden glee I wake up only to be discovered my downfall is somebody else's glee They wait for me to be tripped, trimmed and butchered As I get more and more eroded I could feel something endearing in the form of goodness of people scattered here, there and simply coming out of nowhere It changes my whole perspective and by the time my eyes droop I have gained enough confidence to strengthen myself so that I wake up with dreams and aspirations yet again but with a difference, this time the flame is steady, mind is set, goal is clear, I see nothing but my destination, my thrashers are simply sidelined and focused out of background With fists so clenched I say with confidence Come to thrash me but only if you dare Don't judge me by my past Now I am unaffected by whatever you say because now I am clear of what I am, my weaknesses and strengths and now is the time of my rea...

I used to get too sad when people mock at me really meaning it. Mutual respect is something which is required to keep the friendship moving. A simple discouragement (and that too when it comes to a misunderstanding) used to slow me up. I feel once you grow out of the stage of destructive criticisms affecting you, you have really attained self respect. Keep in mind to be soft to others to the maximum extent and do remember the fact when you destructively criticize them at one stage they had succumbed from criticizing you at some other previous stage. Respect others and respect yourself but this will work only if everybody mutually respect each other not if somebody alone starts respecting. What keeps me moving each day (right now I am going through a strange phase in my life) is the mere fact that there is still goodness in some people no matter some are waiting for you to be thrashed out.

I don't know how it happened but now I am stuffed with the I don't care attitude to its limit. I was just going through the phase of whether to care or not care (it's a secret regarding the matter to be cared) and I came up with the optimum level of caring concept because I was getting hurt when I went to both the extremes. And regarding the optimum caring level we will have to experiment ourselves and once you discover that your breathing levels would be almost close to normal! Experimentally proven and no guarantee because I was the person who conducted the test!!! Maybe we should go for normally distributing the data after all life is so closely related to probability!